This month would probably be one of the busiest months that I ever had so far, so there is no question that I feel so stressed out. I really want to stop the ticking of the clock and just sit even just for a moment. But I have no choice since this is part of my daily routine and there is no sensible point in quitting.
Valentine’s day was no different for me this year, since I was still trying to pretend that everything is okay. But then I got a present from one of my favorite patients. Upon reading the note, I couldn’t help but smile. This made me realize that even if I am in the point of giving up, I should think that somehow I am still lucky enough to be alive and to receive complements even in the simplest way.
Kids these days, they are mean. But they can be very sweet too :)))
I never knew Daniel Radcliffe can sing very well! Haha! Nice!
I just finished listening to a popular Les Miserables soundtrack, “On My Own”. I want to see this movie, but I still need time and money of course. I’ve used to hearing this song before and I never really listened intently to the lyrics, until now.
After 2 years, I finally write something about this stuff. I just find it funny that the word “friend zone” makes sense to me now. After all that had happened before, there were only a few people (close to me) who knows this, and this time I can say that I would feel comfortable to talk about it.
I still call that an elusive dream. I still remember that time when he told me the truth, and that time when I had admit to him what I felt and how I accepted reality. It felt like it just happened yesterday. But now, as I am typing these words and preparing myself to publish this on the web, I feel that the whole pain is getting better. It was definitely one of the hardest things to go through, it may sound corny but it really happens.
I am happy to say that at this moment I am able to laugh all about it. After 2 years of pretending to be happy and praying that everything would pass, I am able to laugh freely again. I still hate to see them both, but deep inside me I no longer feel that bitterness. Numb? Maybe just a little.
I will still remember the friendship that he and I had and those memories would always stay with me wherever I go, or wherever my life will take me. However, it should be understood that there are things in life that will never be the same. I still wish them both the best. And at this point in time, I am “okay”, and still learning.
Hanson live concert. Trip to the ICU. Second year at my job. Homecoming at Hillside. Dengue scare. Surprise 23rd birthday party. Unforgettable trips to Subic and Ilocandia. These are the highlights of my 2012. I would definitely treasure those moments and keep them with me forever… But still (like we always do), we should always stay focused on the present and look forward to the future. Here’s the official video of Mariah Carey’s version of “Auld Lang Syne”. HAPPY NEW YEAR! xox